For the last 90 days now i have not had an orgasm, this is by far the longest i ever have gone in my life.
I got inspired by the ‘no fap’ videos on youtube, lots of guys talking about the benefits of no masturbation, so i decided to give it a go, and see what would happen.
The first 3 weeks was the most difficult, as i used to have orgasms quite regular, sometimes everyday, sometimes watching porn, and other times using my imagination. I found it quite challenging to say the least, and it was one of the most toughest things i have done, and i have done things like walk up mountains, walked the pennine way, done harinama in pouring rain, busked in very cold conditions, stopped eating cooked food, but none of these things was as tough as not having an orgasm for those first 3 weeks, it really was a intense spiritual struggle, but to be honest, i liked the fact that i was in a war, and i was determined to win it, and i was getting help via youtube, watching the films of the guys who were saying to get to the 90 day land-mark, which is a sign that a person is no longer addicted to having orgasms, and today, i did that! I am totally mind-blown, and so pleased to have done this!
After that first 3 week period, the intensity started to ease, and i started to feel more self-esteem, and feel more energy, and this inspired me further to carry on to this point right now. I feel like i have more energy for music, and i am much more focused, i don’t get that ‘drained’ feeling anymore like i used to when i was orgasming.
I still wake up on some mornings aroused!, as my mind does still linger in fantasy sometimes, but this is to be expected because we cant stop the mind, we can only do things to push the mind out of focus, like meditation, mantras, music, going for a walk in nature, etc.
I hope to continue with not having orgasms, i feel much more connected to the spiritual realms, a subtle feeling, kind of indescribable, but by far the best benefit!
I got inspired to buy these green ‘dohti’ trousers the other day, these really help to defuse the sexual energy, and i also got a green pixie hat to match it, and i wore it with my mantra krishna shirt, these pics i took of myself just before i went out on Harinama last night…